Let's pull another story out of the library stack and find another piece of the Prayer Puzzle . . .
"Help, Father God, I'm going through "kid withdrawal" again!
I thought I was over that when my oldest, E, left for college a couple of years ago. After crying oceans of tears, I began to adjust. I got busy with life again and contented myself with phone calls and occasional visits.
I remember the aching emptiness when my youngest child, J, started first grade. But I got to know myself again. And there were unexpected surprises. The first time I baked cookies, it suddenly occurred to me that both beaters were mine to lick. I didn't have to share them anymore!
But now, Lord, my middle son, K, is a high school senior. He's got a new job and works twenty hours a week. He cut his hair short and looks a year older. His new haircut is fuzzy and he let me rub it.
I hardly see him now. . . between school, jobs and friends. I write him a lot of notes.
I remember two years ago when I went with him to purchase his first suit. It was a tender moment. He turned into a gentleman before my eyes.
Now K is also gradually drifting away. Oh, he'll always love me but he won't live with me. . . share my home and my daily life. I'll always have my children's love. The future offers promising visions of holiday celebrations, weddings and grandchildren.
But it's different. Life changes. I miss my daughter's bubbly chatter about friends, boys and dreams.
Joshua still chatters. Keep him chattering, Lord.
Still, I'm happy. This is what I wanted. I yearned for my kids to grow strong in Christ and independent of Mom and Dad.
My heart soars on wings of joy when I see how responsible, motivated and thoughtful they are becoming. That is the way it should be.
How do you feel, Father God, when I get too busy to chatter to You?
That is not the way it should be!
I will never be independent of You. In fact, as I get older, my dependency on You increases.
Keep me chattering to You, Lord. Always.
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